we are the world

first of all, i have to admit that above is a corny saying.. but i also admit that admitting to that concept has taken me a while, maybe my whole life, until these days..

i still dont think i have a complete grasp of it yet. i cant believe im writing this on internet, but whatever.

the past 2 years of living alone and completely isolating myself from the rest of the world, has got me into a little trouble- i stopped seeing "people" for who they are. i couldn't possibly relate myself to anybody, even my family and friends. then i started to build a massive wall around me, telling myself that there was nobody that understands me, i'm a loner, an outcast. i freaked the fuck out. this VERY weird habit that i developed has often made me so frozen, so fake, so everything bad. i couldnt stand being so awkward and self-conscious about what others would think of me, what they were thinking about me, but most stupidly, what i was thinking of myself. then i realized... it wasn't just the 2 years of isolation thats made me this way, those years just intensified things.. i realized i lived my whole life inside a thick wall, ever since our family's immigration to canada. from then on i could only focus on seeing the differences, given the fact that i was in no doubt "physically" different from anybody around me.

but now im realizing that we're all the same, no matter where i go, people are people. as sad and stupid as this sounds, this is a new concept for me. i need to let go, let myself be, and accept and welcome everyone as they truly are.