it is how it is.

"these feelings won't go away, they've been knockin' me sideways. "

word.
change. i'm scared of it, and excited of it.
me? alone? in the big bad city of los angeles? give me a break... literally.
hectic, hectic these days are, with so much going on, (rooming and classes, mostly.)

i am worried. I am fearful. I am cautious. I am takin a wide look and a big breath.
they still won't go away.

just sittin'

The last 2 days were one of the most hectic days of life. Packing, moving, unpacking boxes, driving the U-Haul truck, driving it back, everything was craaaazzzy.

My parents have decided to move to the city of Longmont, the most boringest city in the state of Colorado. (it's chosen one of the best retirement spots in the States!) Half the people I see here are old people (like, really old) and it's already starting to take a toll on me. Parentals have decided to move here because it is closer to their work. They never gave me a chance to argue about staying in Boulder. Lame. It's a nice little aparment, where I'm staying at, with a swimming pool and a gym. I'm really starting to think about what I'll be doing here for the rest of the summer before I go to college. Hm...

the so called MUZIC

it's an amazing thing.
probably only one of few that actaully makes sense anymore these crazy, hatred filled days, where the sun never seems to be at the bottom again. Mile High Music Fest pt 2 was today, and i was lucky enough to get a ticket (for cheaper) from my best friend. and im so glad that i went! it was worth every penny. i've never actually ever been to such a huge festival with so many people gathered in one place for the same purpose- their love and appreciation for mu:sic. My eyes are slowly shutting down from being so tired running around to different stages to see different artists of different genres. my voice is gone form yelling and cheering for the bandskys, the guiltar, bass, and drum solos, and of course, the epic Dave Matthews Band performance. The bands and groups i saw were: the rose hill drive, tea leaf green, the black crowes, the roots, flobots, john mayer, and a couple more. I can't really hear out of my right ear anymore, but i'm sure it'll be alright in the morning. it was amazing to see so many people gather together and have a kick-ass time listening to the music, burning the green, and never forgetting to remember to put your hands in the air.

go ahead, make yourself at home.

i recently became unknowingly interested in this really complex but a very interesting thing, so-called; new age philosophy. They educate our greased-up, rusted, and clanking brains, and strengthen our most wildest curiosities. The key here, is to think less logically, ask fewer questions, and always be open to the very unknown, living the life of the power of the concept; "right now" the only real time that exists within and all around us.

I believe that being present is being in love, for love is how and why life IS.
You're not being an american, not being a teenager, no roles, no categories. You just are, and that's why and how existance of love happens.

me.

there's a lot of things people don't understand about me, and im going to write it on here, even though pretty much no one even knows the fact that i have a blogger. \

i am a happy-go-get (?) person, enjoying life's everyday treasures and its dreams that follow along the way. i draw, (every now and then these lazy summer days) i sing, i dance, i laugh at the most weirdest things, and can't really explain when or what causes it, but i don't mind, as long as i'm enjoying myself with them. i have the biggest admiration for chick flicks. i don't know why, they just create that hope of hopeless romantic in the corner of my heart. i'm a pretty much get along with everyone, whether they're of my interest or not. I have close friends too, so don't feel bad you guys. i'm the kind of kid who will stare into the sky for hours thinking of too many things in my head, come across a brilliant idea, (of whatever) but always forget to write it down, thinking: "man, that was probably a really good one." im the type of person, that if anything bad or unfortunate happens to you, i will feel horrible and do something to help you out. (attempting, but sometimes failing) im the type of person who will look up at the stars, and think of a world where no man has ever lived, and wonder how it would be not to have your music, your soul, and your self-awareness, thinking nothing but blank pages inside your head. i'm always confused, and can't really figure out what i'm confused about. just confused, hoping that some day, some day i will figure it out and laugh at myself for such silly worries. sometimes i prefer to walk backwards to a destination, or write with a left hand. none of these will probably make sense to any of you, and that is exactly why i wrote what i just wrote.

BOOP!