realization.

i've always loved Los Angeles- i guess i'm like everyone else in which all we see of the city and its metro area are pretty much dramatized and exaggerated in the everyday media. now that i've actually come to this place and having lived 12 days, (and counting) there are some things i love, and some things i don't love so much- like every other city in the world that i've lived in. for instance, i came here thinking everyone would be so open to other cultures and being acceptable of diversity at such a city like Los Angeles, but i was somewhat wrong. so many people i see around campus have their little "clicks", mainly of the "click"s ethnicity, or a country of origin. black on black, yellow on yellow, white on white, brown on brown. i was tremendously disappointed in these monochromatic formation of ethnic groups i was exposed to on a daily f-ing basis. maybe i over-estimated this place, or it's just the way life works around here, i haven't really come to figure that much out yet. one thing i know for sure though, is that i undoubtfully HATE this atmosphere. maybe it's getting a little too much of my life and where i stand in this confusing world of diversity, but this was one of the things i was expecting the most out of a big city, and now it came out to be the exact opposite. or rather, worse than expected. and this kind of an experience was never once brought upon me as a serious obstacle to hurdle over, but now i feel as if i have to either join one side or another, and it's starting to really annoy me and take control of me. i don't like it, and im hoping to get out in this big controversy of sterotypical shit hole, and focus what's important in my life, fucking the rest along the way.