girls.

they are very weird creatures. 

as soon as you think you can tell what's going on inside their head, they knock you back into reality. 

i've been on and off with my female companion for quite some time now, and i still can't quite decide what to do about her and i. one day i can pass a day without even thinking about her, another day she is constantly on my mind. 

being back home and seeing her for the first time in 4 months, sparked something up in our relationship... yet neither of us know where we will end up in the end. i hate feeling this feeling. i hate not knowing what will happen to her and i. 

this is a very weird feeling for me. something i have never felt before. 

i feel insecure, scared, lost, and i hate it.

maybe one day i'll wake up and this will all just be a dream.